Drawing from Drew

Friday dawned and I was relieved that we almost made it to Drew’s birthday.  As I said on Thursday’s post, I really felt ready.  Cried out, said all there was to say, and was looking forward to the weekend we had planned.  So after Josh got home from work Friday, we left for the hotel. …

Who would have guessed where we would be in life when Drew turned two.  It was a hospital week a year ago.  I’m not even sure why, I could look it up.  It was between chemo cycles, but we were trying to resolve a line infection I think.  My Aunt was staying with him.  I’ve felt bad that I wasn’t…

Golden birthdays. Another thing I think by God’s design Drew got to experience.  Since he only got two birthdays, I’m thankful he got that special one too.  I remember thinking it was too bad that it wasn’t when he was older and could have knew what was going on.  Now I’m just grateful he was…

April 1st, 2014.  The day Drew was born. It was his due date, only 15% of babies are actually born on their due date.  Also April Fool’s day.  He was meant to be special.  Going to bed the night before I think I knew he was coming.  After doing it once before, I could feel the…

Another week has passed.  Once again, I feel like we got a lot done, things that show we’re moving forward.  First, I’ve needed to wash and donate the 4 convertible car seats we no longer need.  At one point Molly was in that size too, so we had 2 sets for each car.  They take…

Spring Break was pretty busy for us!  Since Molly is in preschool 5 days a week, it actually felt like we had a break, and we filled it!  We had snow to start the week, which I always love.  It’s fun to watch Molly “help” Josh shovel from inside.  Drew didn’t like going outside in…

It was a busy weekend!  We started our Spring Break week watching the Cyclones play in the Big 12 Basketball tournament.  There are more than a few Iowa State fans up here, and we got together with some to watch the games.  The Cyclones won it all, and it was fun to see.  Molly had…

This week’s meetings for Warrior Wagons, INC went so well!  With the accountants, we were glad to hear that book keeping and tax filing for our small non profit are actually pretty simple, and we can do it on our own for a while.  It was interesting to hear what is required once you reach…

Well after last week being such a tough week, I feel like, at least so far, this week God has given me a break from the flood of emotions.  We’ve been busy it feels like, and it’s been good.  First off, last Friday, Warrior Wagons, Inc. was born!  The paperwork was filed and we got…

Yesterday was a hard day.  It started off fine, but after I saw on my “one year ago” reminder on Facebook this sweet picture of Drew, I cried the rest of the day.  Just look at that face!  Oh he was so sweet.  So full of joy, of life.  And when I read all that was…

As I continue to have up and down days, I have been really trying to continue in the habits that have anchored me this whole year–a major one being finding things to be thankful for.  Just like last year, there is a lot out there if I chose to see it.  And it just lifts you…

The last post on CaringBridge was on our one month mark from when Drew went Home.  It has been an emotional week for me.  As I wrote last weekend, I went back to that day, and saw it differently than when it was happening.  I noticed new things in my memories that I didn’t see…