Grasping-Joy

Grasping Joy

$17.99

“There’s a small chance it might not be cancer.”

Encouraging or not, these words started a journey no one would willingly take, but one Heidi and her family reluctantly began—cancer treatment with their child.

Two-year-old Drew will capture your heart as you watch him courageously endure treatment for stage four cancer. At the same time, you’ll learn what true joy really is and how to hold it tight, even in heartbreaking circumstances. Heidi will leave you convinced that it is possible for a regular, average Christian to walk with the Lord and experience His joy during the unimaginable.

Praise for Grasping Joy

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Heidi Becker writes a heart-wrenching, powerful account of what it means to hold onto our Lord when life gets really difficult. Her honest and candid record of her remarkable journey is a tremendous testimony to God’s grace and a determined perseverance of faith.

Grasping Joy is a must read. Take the emotional roller coaster journey with Heidi and her family as they embrace the with ups, downs, twists and turns of childhood cancer with their son Drew. In the end, you will be left reflecting on your own life and how we can all find joy in the journey of life if we look for it.


— Erik Rees, co-founder, ceo & proud father, Jessie Rees Foundation

As someone who had the profound privilege of being part of Drew’s care team, I can personally attest to the accuracy and emotional truth of Heidi’s narrative. Her account not only honors the extraordinary child that Drew was—his charm, his humor, his

As someone who had the profound privilege of being part of Drew’s care team, I can personally attest to the accuracy and emotional truth of Heidi’s narrative. Her accaount not only honors the extraordinary child that Drew was—his charm, his humor, his uncanny ability to wrap an entire medical team around his little finger—but it also captures the steadfast resilience and intentional pursuit of joy that defined his treatment journey.

Heidi’s writing is both luminous and raw. She has an extraordinary gift for translating the full emotional spectrum of pediatric cancer—the elation of small victories, the devastation of setbacks, the ache of anticipatory grief—into language that resonates deeply. What sets this book apart is not only the powerful story at its core, but the way it’s told—with a mother’s unflinching honesty, a heart grounded in faith, and a voice that refuses to let sorrow eclipse light.

But Grasping Joy is far more than a memoir of illness. It is an exploration of what it means to be a mother when the unimaginable happens. It’s a meditation on love, faith, and the fierce, everyday choice to find joy in the midst of pain. It’s also a tribute—to Drew, to family, to the sacredness of connection in our most vulnerable moments.

This book is a gift to anyone who has walked through grief, wrestled with faith, or simply wondered how to hold on to hope when the world tilts sideways. Heidi has created something beautiful here—honest, heartbreaking, and somehow, impossibly, filled with light.


- Nikki Tucker, PA-C, EdD, Chronically Booked Podcast

In Grasping Joy: A Mother’s Story of Faith Amid the Unimaginable, Heidi Becker invites us into the most intimate terrain of the human heart—where love, suffering, faith, and hope collide. Through the story of caring for her son Drew as he courageously battled cancer, Heidi writes with a tenderness and honesty.

In Grasping Joy: A Mother’s Story of Faith Amid the Unimaginable, Heidi Becker invites us into the most intimate terrain of the human heart—where love, suffering, faith, and hope collide. Through the story of caring for her son Drew as he courageously battled cancer, Heidi writes with a tenderness and honesty that refuses to look away from pain, yet never allows pain to have the final word. Her words carry the weight of lived experience, illuminating what it means to choose faith and light in moments when darkness feels overwhelming.

What makes this book so powerful is Heidi’s ability to find meaning in the smallest moments. She shows us how perspective can transform devastation into devotion, and despair into sacred ground. With remarkable clarity, she reminds us that joy is not the absence of suffering, but the courage to see goodness and grace within it. Her reflections speak to something universal—because while few will walk her exact path, all of us will face loss, uncertainty, and the question of how to keep going when life breaks our hearts.

Above all, this is a testament to love—the kind that gives without counting the cost. Heidi exemplifies the very essence of a mother’s love: fierce, selfless, and unwavering. Through Drew’s life, she reveals a profound truth about what it means to truly live. At the end of the day, if a life is measured not by years, but by love given and received, then Drew lived abundantly and continues to live on in the hearts he has touched. This book gently but powerfully reminds us of the true meaning of life—faith, love, and the quiet, courageous choice to grasp joy even when it feels just out of reach.


— Mira A. Kohorst, MD

What makes this book so powerful is Heidi’s ability to find meaning in the smallest moments. She shows us how perspective can transform devastation into devotion, and despair into sacred ground. With remarkable clarity, she reminds us that joy is not the absence of suffering, but the courage to see goodness and grace within it.

One of the most challenging of callings from our Shepherd is that of fully trusting Him through your child’s fight for life. Painfully honest questions relentlessly harass the heart longing to believe His plan is truly good. Can we truly “count it all joy” when, on most days, the journey is one-step-forward, then two-steps-back? And in this crucible, can we embrace an unshakable, confident joy that resurrection life will unquestionably prevail? In this remarkable account, Heidi Becker invites us to walk with her, her family, and her Shepherd, through a valley requiring a tenacious trust energized by regularly delighting in Him. Take this journey with her, eyes focused on the Author and Perfecter of our faith.


— Dr. David A. Staff, Director of Field Staff Care, Resource Exchange International, Inc.
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  • “Gratitude, surrender, and trust had led us to joy, and I was grasping it tight.”

    - Heidi J. Becker